There have been so many dark and intimidating nights of the soul in my life. So many days clouded by the intense fog of doubt and poor self-esteem. There were decades, early on, that the belief that I would survive until the next day was questioned by myself and others. There were hours that I clutched to the weakest fingerholds on the fragile cracks of the sheer cliff of life, wondering if this would be the time that I plunged to my end. But I survived.
Before salvation, I believe I survived by the sheer caprice of luck. Or, perhaps it was by a dogged narcissism that wouldn't allow me to check out. The fact is that every day I lived in a Dante's inferno of hell-spawned anguish of thought that I medicated with anything I could find. I committed acts of such vile contemptibility that I was sure there was no return. But I survived.
By the grace of a forgiving Father whom I believe has some purpose for my life, I was granted not only survival but redemption. I received a gift I didn't deserve and freedom I didn't earn.
I share this today because we are entering a season that is overwhelming for some. Many are absorbed in the prevailing mood of joy and hope. But there are some, more than you may think, that are weary and consumed in sadness and a loss of faith that seems too much to bear.
This post is for them. I dream that they might see that a grand and glorious sunrise follows every dark and imposing night. I pray that they might understand that in the sightless pitch black of their souls gloomy night, people are surrounding them with love and caring. I beg that they hold on, however hard and precarious it seems at the moment. I can assure them with certainty, through the testament of my life, that the moment will pass. The sun will rise again to warm their souls. The dream of a better life will become the reality they live.
I find the message of hope in the world that surrounds me. I see the pathway to glory in each sunrise. I hear the word of faith in every one of nature's sounds. I share my images and stories in the hope that others will also find solace, peace, and serenity so freely given to me. I promise that if you hang on, you will be rewarded. I truly believe that If it can happen to one as wretched as me, it can happen for you.
I remain His scribe.
Shoot Date: December 7, 2019
Canon EOS 5D Mark IV
30.0 sec at f/11 Bias:2 EV
Lens:EF16-35mm f/4L IS USM @ 16 mm
Always love your beautiful words & credit to the Creator just as much as the gorgeous photos you take of our beautiful adopted state! God bless.
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